Hi All,
Thanks a Lot !!!!! I already told to my director to setup a meeeting with all of us and make us very clear about our work responsibilities .... Director told to my manager but he said I dont have time 4 this nonscense things.... I will try again....Actually Overall in my company we have 2 section one is commercial which includes Dispatch,Stores,Finance and HR.... All technical guys like these changes but commercial members are not accepting it.... Main thing is all these people are old age person and i m very younger (23 yrs).....And they are here from past minimum 5 yrs.... And its in their that if they will accept these changes then I will become superiar then them.... They dont want to follow me but want me to follow them,,,, They will fight wth me for very simple things like housekepping changes, Swipper changes,Parking chnges and all other silly things....They are not participating in any fun activity for staff members......Fistly I used used to fight wth them and no doubt able to do this but now i dont have energy to do all this..... I am not organising any activity ,not publishing newsletter, never used to update notice boards and all, ... They used to give me a order but never makes me understood what is this.... Simply they will tell me you to follow my instruction for this work dont use ur mind,,,, only do what i told u to do.....I am in depression from past one month.. Even I took a break of 3 days so that again I can join in a fresh mood and start my work again... But now some where I am feeling that I dont have positive energy to fight with them,,,,, Daily after coming here I feel headak..... I am feeling very irretating now... I never used to talk to anybody, Never used to laught,,,,, I started celebrating Friday is Funday but from last 3 weeks I am not doing that,,, Last week all workers came to take me but I didnt join them..... Serioussly its worst sitauation in my life...... I thougt all this i will tell to my director but them i thought what he will think about me,,,,, this is my fault that i beome irretating in nature... I dont know how i will be out of this depression.... dont know whether I shoud go for psychologist or not....from past 3 month i was just tring to manage it i was thinking like one day everybody will accept me my work... I am very charimg girl in nature,,,but cant understand politics... But now its 5th month,,,, Some time i feel taht i am compromising with career..... 5 months arount 155 days I spent simply..... I dont know wherether i am right direction or not... I am away from my family from past 2 years only for my career so that i can support them and can help others .........But i waste 5 months I am missing my family but even cant tell them ,,,,,,yesterday 1st time i joined a group may be my shiva guide me for that,, And i got good friends and guides..... today even without any reason one guy started shouting at me,,,,,Till date i am very polite with them ........I dont hate then but cant love them.......serioussly feeling like i should die,,,, not able to make my career , not doing social activities, not able to make my family happy,,,,not able to meet them even.... so what else is there for me....... dont know what i am going to do... everything left on shiva only..I was thinking may be i am wrong somewhere.....and i am not able to judge myself..may be i need changes in my nature.... but now not in that stage now.....
Thanks a Lot !!!!! I already told to my director to setup a meeeting with all of us and make us very clear about our work responsibilities .... Director told to my manager but he said I dont have time 4 this nonscense things.... I will try again....Actually Overall in my company we have 2 section one is commercial which includes Dispatch,Stores,Finance and HR.... All technical guys like these changes but commercial members are not accepting it.... Main thing is all these people are old age person and i m very younger (23 yrs).....And they are here from past minimum 5 yrs.... And its in their that if they will accept these changes then I will become superiar then them.... They dont want to follow me but want me to follow them,,,, They will fight wth me for very simple things like housekepping changes, Swipper changes,Parking chnges and all other silly things....They are not participating in any fun activity for staff members......Fistly I used used to fight wth them and no doubt able to do this but now i dont have energy to do all this..... I am not organising any activity ,not publishing newsletter, never used to update notice boards and all, ... They used to give me a order but never makes me understood what is this.... Simply they will tell me you to follow my instruction for this work dont use ur mind,,,, only do what i told u to do.....I am in depression from past one month.. Even I took a break of 3 days so that again I can join in a fresh mood and start my work again... But now some where I am feeling that I dont have positive energy to fight with them,,,,, Daily after coming here I feel headak..... I am feeling very irretating now... I never used to talk to anybody, Never used to laught,,,,, I started celebrating Friday is Funday but from last 3 weeks I am not doing that,,, Last week all workers came to take me but I didnt join them..... Serioussly its worst sitauation in my life...... I thougt all this i will tell to my director but them i thought what he will think about me,,,,, this is my fault that i beome irretating in nature... I dont know how i will be out of this depression.... dont know whether I shoud go for psychologist or not....from past 3 month i was just tring to manage it i was thinking like one day everybody will accept me my work... I am very charimg girl in nature,,,but cant understand politics... But now its 5th month,,,, Some time i feel taht i am compromising with career..... 5 months arount 155 days I spent simply..... I dont know wherether i am right direction or not... I am away from my family from past 2 years only for my career so that i can support them and can help others .........But i waste 5 months I am missing my family but even cant tell them ,,,,,,yesterday 1st time i joined a group may be my shiva guide me for that,, And i got good friends and guides..... today even without any reason one guy started shouting at me,,,,,Till date i am very polite with them ........I dont hate then but cant love them.......serioussly feeling like i should die,,,, not able to make my career , not doing social activities, not able to make my family happy,,,,not able to meet them even.... so what else is there for me....... dont know what i am going to do... everything left on shiva only..I was thinking may be i am wrong somewhere.....and i am not able to judge myself..may be i need changes in my nature.... but now not in that stage now.....